[OTC] Memory

[enjoythe_ride]

It was the memories that started to go first. Bits of her life disappearing into the abyss below her while she tried to hold onto the things that mattered, the things that made her human, because if anything that would be the thing that saved her from everything else. She needed to remember everything, every crushing detail of her life, no matter how much it pained her to hold on to—no matter how badly she wanted it over everything else.

And she didn’t just lose it, either. She relived it as she did. It played like it was on a movie screen in front of her, and she was just a third party—observing, watching, looking for some kind of sign of how she could hold onto them a little while longer, but before the moment had passed on the screen they were gone, vanishing into the abyss of the pit. She felt them disappear, and with every memory, she felt herself get lighter. Almost as though a worry or a care was being taken off her shoulders and her body was better off without it. Without wondering. Without remembering. And all at the same time, all she wanted to do was cry for what she was losing.

Unfortunately for her, there are no tears in hell.

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[feel-theburn.livejournal.com]

::sniffle:: So sad. So good.

...Mikey wants her to have more fun memories..

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[enjoythe_ride]

Mikey's not alone in that thought, but she's Bela. Totally!Happy!Bela would have to be some kind of anomaly.

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[lawyerlarry.livejournal.com]

Yes, it really would. But his ideas of fun are more along the lines of wild car ride and...other wild times. He hasn't really been known to "be happy and enjoy life" himself.

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[enjoythe_ride]

Ahh -- also very true.

I guess that makes sense.

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[whattingawhat.livejournal.com]

Oh! This is so so so so very good! Excellent job. And if you're okay with it, I may take this piece as inspiration and do Dean in Hell holding onto memories because he's like HEY! If she can remain human (and that's debatable whether she was to begin with or not) so the friggin' hell can I.

Beautiful job. Poor Bela. Dean may still be an ass but I feel sorry for her.

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[enjoythe_ride]

You're more than welcome to use it as a bouncing off point for Dean. And yes, poor Bela. Bela-in-hell isn't really a fun one to write, I have to say.

I'm glad you liked it.