enjoythe_ride | [ROTM] If money is the root of all evil, then what is the root of all good?

God? Having a soul? Self-fulfillment?

No. Not really. People fear God, but not enough to truly embrace him—just enough to get their asses into church every Sunday, thinking that that will earn them salvation. People with souls still commit murder, and far too few people find fulfillment in helping others. Instinct kind of cuts off that particular version of euphoria. As they say, money can’t buy you love, but love can’t buy you a roof over your head, or be used to pay your bills. So it’s a choice people have to make—survive or do the right thing. The fine line we tread.

I, personally, chose to survive. But that’s not the point of this.

Would pride be the better answer? Guilt, maybe? People do the things they do because they can’t handle the emotions that come with doing nothing. They ‘wouldn’t be able to live with themselves.’ Everything a human being does is a matter of personal gain. I’ve yet to meet on truly selfless person, and while that may not speak well of the human race, it’s not necessarily a bad thing either. We are animals after all—regardless of whatever higher intelligence we may possess, we evolved from the apes for Christ’s sake. We act on instinct more than anything else. And while some sentiments are heartfelt and honest—there’s always a bit of personal motivation thrown in there as well. Revenge, loss, compassion. Whatever it may be—it’s always driven by what the person wants and needs.

So I guess desire would be the root of all good. And the irony of it all, is it’s also the root of carnal sin as well. Quite the double-edged sword, yeah?

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You know I hate to admit that you're right. I started hunting with Dean for revenge. We survive though. We survive and we do the right thing. For the most part.

You know Dean though and whether you realize it or not, he's probably as close to truly selfless as anyone I've ever met. He doesn't do this because he wants revenge or because it killed our Mom. He does this because it saves people.

Barely. You make it through things by the skin of your teeth, and squatting in various empty houses isn't what I'd call surviving.

While when it comes to Dean maybe it is saving people, but that's also gratifying for him and makes him feel good about himself. Either that, or he doesn't know how to do anything else and doing this makes him feel like he has a purpose.

Granted, your brother is better than most, Sam, but he's human after all. There's always going to be the base animal instinct to need something, and for some reason, your brother needs to hunt, and he's going to hunt until it kills him.

There's nothing wrong with barely surviving. And we don't squat in empty houses most of the time. Usually we find hotel rooms.

Actually, he'd quit. He wanted to and I wouldn't let him. He wants to go see the fucking Grand Canyon for some reason. Maybe he wouldn't quit for good. I don't know but he'd take a break and I'm not willing to let either of us.

But you don't really have a place to call home do you? Nothing that stays in one place and doesn't go where you go?

What's wrong with a little vacation, Sam? Everyone needs a little R&R every once in a while.

As cheesy as this is likely to sound, places aren't home, Bela. And I guess if they are, the closest we've got to a home is The Impala.

I don't have time to take vacation right now. We'll take a vacation this summer.

Cheesy, yes -- but sometimes it's nice to have a place where you can go and not think about the job. Can you really do that in that car?

And as for the vacation -- sometimes it's not all about what you have time to do, Sam. What about your brother? Maybe it might do him some good.

Yeah. That or a hotel room. My entire life is in that car or in a hotel room. They feel more like home than anyplace with maybe the exception of Pastor Jim's does. And now that he's gone that's not an option.

But if I don't get this done he's not going to have time to do anything good.

And these things can't be done at the same time? Dean can't take a vacation while you do what you're doing?

Dean can but I don't think he will without me.

Don't you two ever take any personal time?

Like apart?

Sure Dean takes the hotel room when he needs it and I sit in the Impala.

Or together? And I don't mean that in any way that can be remotely defined as ick.

Of course I mean apart.

And no, I mean serious alone time. Like -- a day without seeing each other. Or hell, at this point a few hours.

We spent four years apart while I was in Stanford. We're good with not spending anymore time apart.

That cannot be psychologically healthy.

And you call me damaged.

How is loving your brother not psychologically healthy?

Everyone is damaged, Bela. If they claim they aren't they're just more fucked up than they want to admit.

Everyone needs their space sometimes, Sam. Being constantly around the same person, no matter how much you love them, is never healthy.

Don't I know it.

I need my space I go lock myself in the Impala. Dean needs his space he puts quarters in the magic fingers bed. It freaks me out and I leave the room.

Never mind. I still don't believe it's healthy, but -- whatever floats your boat.

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